第9章 Ermengarde(3)

Never in her dull,short life had Miss St.John dreamed of such an hour as the one she spent with the queer new pupil before they heard the lunch-bell ring and were obliged to go downstairs.

Sara sat upon the hearth-rug and told her strange things.She sat rather huddled up,and her green eyes shone and her cheeks flushed.

She told stories of the voyage,and stories of India;but what fascinated Ermengarde the most was her fancy about the dolls who walked and talked,and who could do anything they chose when the human beings were out of the room,but who must keep their powers a secret and so flew back to their places "like lightning"

when people returned to the room.

"WE couldn't do it,"said Sara,seriously."You see,it's a kind of magic."

Once,when she was relating the story of the search for Emily,Ermengarde saw her face suddenly change.A cloud seemed to pass over it and put out the light in her shining eyes.She drew her breath in so sharply that it made a funny,sad little sound,and then she shut her lips and held them tightly closed,as if she was determined either to do or NOT to do something.

Ermengarde had an idea that if she had been like any other little girl,she might have suddenly burst out sobbing and crying.

But she did not.

"Have you a--a pain?"Ermengarde ventured.

"Yes,"Sara answered,after a moment's silence."But it is not in my body."Then she added something in a low voice which she tried to keep quite steady,and it was this:"Do you love your father more than anything else in all the whole world?"

Ermengarde's mouth fell open a little.She knew that it would be far from behaving like a respectable child at a select seminary to say that it had never occurred to you that you COULD love your father,that you would do anything desperate to avoid being left alone in his society for ten minutes.She was,indeed,greatly embarrassed.

"I--I scarcely ever see him,"she stammered."He is always in the library--reading things."

"I love mine more than all the world ten times over,"Sara said.

"That is what my pain is.He has gone away."

She put her head quietly down on her little,huddled-up knees,and sat very still for a few minutes.

"She's going to cry out loud,"thought Ermengarde,fearfully.

But she did not.Her short,black locks tumbled about her ears,and she sat still.Then she spoke without lifting her head.

"I promised him I would bear it,"she said."And I will.You have to bear things.Think what soldiers bear!Papa is a soldier.

If there was a war he would have to bear marching and thirstiness and,perhaps,deep wounds.And he would never say a word--not one word."

Ermengarde could only gaze at her,but she felt that she was beginning to adore her.She was so wonderful and different from anyone else.

Presently,she lifted her face and shook back her black locks,with a queer little smile.

"If I go on talking and talking,"she said,"and telling you things about pretending,I shall bear it better.You don't forget,but you bear it better."

Ermengarde did not know why a lump came into her throat and her eyes felt as if tears were in them.

"Lavinia and Jessie are `best friends,'"she said rather huskily.

"I wish we could be `best friends.'Would you have me for yours?

You're clever,and I'm the stupidest child in the school,but I--oh,I do so like you!"

"I'm glad of that,"said Sara."It makes you thankful when you are liked.Yes.We will be friends.And I'll tell you what"--a sudden gleam lighting her face--"I can help you with your French lessons."