第35章

"What do you think of my poor sonnets?"Lucien asked,coming straight to the point.

"Do you want the truth?"

"I am young enough to like the truth,and so anxious to succeed that Ican hear it without taking offence,but not without despair,"replied Lucien.

"Well,my dear fellow,the first sonnet,from its involved style,was evidently written at Angouleme;it gave you so much trouble,no doubt,that you cannot give it up.The second and third smack of Paris already;but read us one more sonnet,"he added,with a gesture that seemed charming to the provincial.

Encouraged by the request,Lucien read with more confidence,choosing a sonnet which d'Arthez and Bridau liked best,perhaps on account of its color.

THE TULIP.

I am the Tulip from Batavia's shore;

The thrifty Fleming for my beauty rare Pays a king's ransom,when that I am fair,And tall,and straight,and pure my petal's core.

And,like some Yolande of the days of yore,My long and amply folded skirts I wear,O'er-painted with the blazon that I bear --Gules,a fess azure;purpure,fretty,or.

The fingers of the Gardener divine Have woven for me my vesture fair and fine,Of threads of sunlight and of purple stain;No flower so glorious in the garden bed,But Nature,woe is me,no fragrance shed Within my cup of Orient porcelain.

"Well?"asked Lucien after a pause,immeasurably long,as it seemed to him.

"My dear fellow,"Etienne said,gravely surveying the tips of Lucien's boots (he had brought the pair from Angouleme,and was wearing them out)."My dear fellow,I strongly recommend you to put your ink on your boots to save blacking,and to take your pens for toothpicks,so that when you come away from Flicoteaux's you can swagger along this picturesque alley looking as if you had dined.Get a situation of any sort or deion.Run errands for a bailiff if you have the heart,be a shopman if your back is strong enough,enlist if you happen to have a taste for military music.You have the stuff of three poets in you;but before you can reach your public,you will have time to die of starvation six times over,if you intend to live on the proceeds of your poetry,that is.And from your too unsophisticated discourse,it would seem to be your intention to coin money out of your inkstand.

"I say nothing as to your verses;they are a good deal better than all the poetical wares that are cumbering the ground in booksellers'backshops just now.Elegant 'nightingales'of that sort cost a little more than the others,because they are printed on hand-made paper,but they nearly all of them come down at last to the banks of the Seine.

You may study their range of notes there any day if you care to make an instructive pilgrimage along the Quais from old Jerome's stall by the Pont Notre Dame to the Pont Royal.You will find them all there--all the Essays in Verse,the Inspirations,the lofty flights,the hymns,and songs,and ballads,and odes;all the nestfuls hatched during the last seven years,in fact.There lie their muses,thick with dust,bespattered by every passing cab,at the mercy of every profane hand that turns them over to look at the vignette on the title-page.

"You know nobody;you have access to no newspaper,so your Marguerites will remain demurely folded as you hold them now.They will never open out to the sun of publicity in fair fields with broad margins enameled with the florets which Dauriat the illustrious,the king of the Wooden Galleries,scatters with a lavish hand for poets known to fame.I came to Paris as you came,poor boy,with a plentiful stock of illusions,impelled by irrepressible longings for glory--and I found the realities of the craft,the practical difficulties of the trade,the hard facts of poverty.In my enthusiasm (it is kept well under control now),my first ebullition of youthful spirits,I did not see the social machinery at work;so I had to learn to see it by bumping against the wheels and bruising myself against the shafts,and chains.

Now you are about to learn,as I learned,that between you and all these fair dreamed-of things lies the strife of men,and passions,and necessities.

"Willy-nilly,you must take part in a terrible battle;book against book,man against man,party against party;make war you must,and that systematically,or you will be abandoned by your own party.And they are mean contests;struggles which leave you disenchanted,and wearied,and depraved,and all in pure waste;for it often happens that you put forth all your strength to win laurels for a man whom you despise,and maintain,in spite of yourself,that some second-rate writer is a genius.

"There is a world behind the scenes in the theatre of literature.The public in front sees unexpected or well-deserved success,and applauds;the public does NOT see the preparations,ugly as they always are,the painted supers,the claqueurs hired to applaud,the stage carpenters,and all that lies behind the scenes.You are still among the audience.Abdicate,there is still time,before you set your foot on the lowest step of the throne for which so many ambitious spirits are contending,and do not sell your honor,as I do,for a livelihood."Etienne's eyes filled with tears as he spoke.

"Do you know how I make a living?"he continued passionately."The little stock of money they gave me at home was soon eaten up.A piece of mine was accepted at the Theatre-Francais just as I came to an end of it.At the Theatre-Francais the influence of a first gentleman of the bedchamber,or of a prince of the blood,would not be enough to secure a turn of favor;the actors only make concessions to those who threaten their self-love.If it is in your power to spread a report that the jeune premier has the asthma,the leading lady a fistula where you please,and the soubrette has foul breath,then your piece would be played to-morrow.I do not know whether in two years'time,Iwho speak to you now,shall be in a position to exercise such power.

You need so many to back you.And where and how am I to gain my bread meanwhile?