第97章 THE CLOSED DOOR(18)
7 - The Tragic Meeting of Two Old Friends He in the meantime had aroused himself from sleep, sat up, and looked around.Eustacia was sitting in a chair hard by him, and though she held a book in her hand she had not looked into it for some time.
"Well, indeed!" said Clym, brushing his eyes with his hands.
"How soundly I have slept! I have had such a tremendous dream, too--one I shall never forget.""I thought you had been dreaming," said she.
"Yes.It was about my mother.I dreamt that I took you to her house to make up differences, and when we got there we couldn't get in, though she kept on crying to us for help.
However, dreams are dreams.What o'clock is it, Eustacia?""Half-past two."
"So late, is it? I didn't mean to stay so long.By the time I have had something to eat it will be after three.""Ann is not come back from the village, and I thought Iwould let you sleep on till she returned."Clym went to the window and looked out.Presently he said, musingly, "Week after week passes, and yet Mother does not come.
I thought I should have heard something from her long before this."Misgiving, regret, fear, resolution, ran their swift course of expression in Eustacia's dark eyes.
She was face to face with a monstrous difficulty, and she resolved to get free of it by postponement.
"I must certainly go to Blooms-End soon," he continued, "and I think I had better go alone." He picked up his leggings and gloves, threw them down again, and added, "As dinner will be so late today I will not go back to the heath, but work in the garden till the evening, and then, when it will be cooler, I will walk to Blooms-End.
I am quite sure that if I make a little advance Mother will be willing to forget all.It will be rather late before I can get home, as I shall not be able to do the distance either way in less than an hour and a half.
But you will not mind for one evening, dear? What are you thinking of to make you look so abstracted?""I cannot tell you," she said heavily."I wish we didn't live here, Clym.The world seems all wrong in this place.""Well--if we make it so.I wonder if Thomasin has been to Blooms-End lately.I hope so.But probably not, as she is, I believe, expecting to be confined in a month or so.
I wish I had thought of that before.Poor Mother must indeed be very lonely.""I don't like you going tonight."
"Why not tonight?"
"Something may be said which will terribly injure me.""My mother is not vindictive," said Clym, his colour faintly rising.
"But I wish you would not go," Eustacia repeated in a low tone."If you agree not to go tonight I promise to go by myself to her house tomorrow, and make it up with her, and wait till you fetch me.""Why do you want to do that at this particular time, when at every previous time that I have proposed it you have refused?""I cannot explain further than that I should like to see her alone before you go," she answered, with an impatient move of her head, and looking at him with an anxiety more frequently seen upon those of a sanguine temperament than upon such as herself.
"Well, it is very odd that just when I had decided to go myself you should want to do what I proposed long ago.
If I wait for you to go tomorrow another day will be lost;and I know I shall be unable to rest another night without having been.I want to get this settled, and will.
You must visit her afterwards--it will be all the same.""I could even go with you now?"
"You could scarcely walk there and back without a longer rest than I shall take.No, not tonight, Eustacia.""Let it be as you say, then," she replied in the quiet way of one who, though willing to ward off evil consequences by a mild effort, would let events fall out as they might sooner than wrestle hard to direct them.
Clym then went into the garden; and a thoughtful languor stole over Eustacia for the remainder of the afternoon, which her husband attributed to the heat of the weather.
In the evening he set out on the journey.Although the heat of summer was yet intense the days had considerably shortened, and before he had advanced a mile on his way all the heath purples, browns, and greens had merged in a uniform dress without airiness or graduation, and broken only by touches of white where the little heaps of clean quartz sand showed the entrance to a rabbit burrow, or where the white flints of a footpath lay like a thread over the slopes.
In almost every one of the isolated and stunted thorns which grew here and there a nighthawk revealed his presence by whirring like the clack of a mill as long as he could hold his breath, then stopping, flapping his wings, wheeling round the bush, alighting, and after a silent interval of listening beginning to whirr again.At each brushing of Clym's feet white millermoths flew into the air just high enough to catch upon their dusty wings the mellowed light from the west, which now shone across the depressions and levels of the ground without falling thereon to light them up.
Yeobright walked on amid this quiet scene with a hope that all would soon be well.Three miles on he came to a spot where a soft perfume was wafted across his path, and he stood still for a moment to inhale the familiar scent.
It was the place at which, four hours earlier, his mother had sat down exhausted on the knoll covered with shepherd's-thyme.While he stood a sound between a breathing and a moan suddenly reached his ears.
He looked to where the sound came from; but nothing appeared there save the verge of the hillock stretching against the sky in an unbroken line.He moved a few steps in that direction, and now he perceived a recumbent figure almost close to his feet.
Among the different possibilities as to the person's individuality there did not for a moment occur to Yeobright that it might be one of his own family.
Sometimes furze-cutters had been known to sleep out of doors at these times, to save a long journey homeward and back again; but Clym remembered the moan and looked closer, and saw that the form was feminine;and a distress came over him like cold air from a cave.