第72章
THE MAN IN THE DINING-ROOM.
IN the great emergencies of life we feel, or we act, as our dispositions incline us.But we never think.Mercy's mind was a blank as she descended the stairs.On her way down she was conscious of nothing but the one headlong impulse to get to the library in the shortest possible space of time.Arrived at the door, the impulse capriciously left her.She stopped on the mat, wondering why she had hurried herself, with time to spare.Her heart sank; the fever of her excitement changed suddenly to a chill as she faced the closed door, and asked herself the question, Dare I go in?
Her own hand answered her.She lifted it to turn the handle of the lock.It dropped again helplessly at her side.
The sense of her own irresolution wrung from her a low exclamation of despair.Faint as it was, it had apparently not passed unheard.The door was opened from within--and Horace stood before her.
He drew aside to let her pass into the room.But he never followed her in.He stood in the doorway, and spoke to her, keeping the door open with his hand.
"Do you mind waiting here for me?" he asked.
She looked at him, in vacant surprise, doubting whether she had heard him aright.
"It will not be for long," he went on."I am far too anxious to hear what you have to tell me to submit to any needless delays.The truth is, I have had a message from Lady Janet."(From Lady Janet! What could Lady Janet want with him, at a time when she was bent on composing herself in the retirement of her own room?)"I ought to have said two messages," Horace proceeded."The first was given to me on my way downstairs.Lady Janet wished to see me immediately.I sent an excuse.A second message followed.Lady Janet would accept no excuse.If I refused to go to her I should be merely obliging her to come to me.It is impossible to risk being interrupted in that way; my only alternative is to get the thing over as soon as possible.Do you mind waiting?""Certainly not.Have you any idea of what Lady Janet wants with you?""No.Whatever it is, she shall not keep me long away from you.You will be quite alone here; I have warned the servants not to show any one in." With those words he left her.
Mercy's first sensation was a sensation of relief--soon lost in a feeling of shame at the weakness which could welcome any temporary relief in such a position as hers.The emotion thus roused merged, in its turn, into a sense of impatient regret."But for Lady Janet's message," she thought to herself, "I might have known my fate by this time!"The slow minutes followed each other drearily.She paced to and fro in the library, faster and faster, under the intolerable irritation, the maddening uncertainty, of her own suspense.Ere long, even the spacious room seemed to be too small for her.The sober monotony of the long book-lined shelves oppressed and offended her.She threw open the door which led into the dining-room, and dashed in, eager for a change of objects, athirst for more space and more air.
At the first step she checked herself; rooted to the spot, under a sudden revulsion of feeling which quieted her in an instant.
The room was only illuminated by the waning fire-light.A man was obscurely visible, seated on the sofa, with his elbows on his knees and his head resting on his hands.He looked up as the open door let in the light from the library lamps.The mellow glow reached his face and revealed Julian Gray.
Mercy was standing with her back to the light; her face being necessarily hidden in deep shadow.He recognized her by her figure, and by the attitude into which it unconsciously fell.That unsought grace, that lithe long beauty of line, belonged to but one woman in the house.He rose, and approached her.
"I have been wishing to see you," he said, "and hoping that accident might bring about some such meeting as this."He offered her a chair.Mercy hesitated before she took her seat.This was their first meeting alone since Lady Janet had interrupted her at the moment when she was about to confide to Julian the melancholy story of the past.Was he anxious to seize the opportunity of returning to her confession? The terms in which he had addressed her seemed to imply it.She put the question to him in plain words "I feel the deepest interest in hearing all that you have still to confide to me," he answered."But anxious as I may be, I will not hurry you.I will wait, if you wish it.""I am afraid I must own that I do wish it," Mercy rejoined."Not on my account--but because my time is at the disposal of Horace Holmcroft.I expect to see him in a few minutes.""Could you give me those few minutes?" Julian asked."I have something on my side to say to you which I think you ought to know before you see any one--Horace himself included."He spoke with a certain depression of tone which was not associated with her previous experience of him.His face looked prematurely old and careworn in the red light of the fire.Something had plainly happened to sadden and to disappoint him since they had last met.
"I willingly offer you all the time that I have at my own command," Mercy replied."Does what you have to tell me relate to Lady Janet?"He gave her no direct reply."What I have to tell you of Lady Janet," he said, gravely, "is soon told.So far as she is concerned you have nothing more to dread.Lady Janet knows all."Even the heavy weight of oppression caused by the impending interview with Horace failed to hold its place in Mercy's mind when Julian answered her in those words.
"Come into the lighted room," she said, faintly."It is too terrible to hear you say that in the dark."Julian followed her into the library.Her limbs trembled under her.She dropped into a chair, and shrank under his great bright eyes, as he stood by her side looking sadly down on her.