第26章 At Christminster(3)

Another voice was that of the Corn Law convert,whose phantom he had just seen in the quadrangle with a great bell.Jude thought his soul might have been shaping the historic words of his master-speech:'Sir,I may be wrong,but my impression is that my duty towards a country threatened with famine requires that that which has been the ordinary remedy under all similar circumstances should be resorted to now,namely,that there should be free access to the food of man from whatever quarter it may come....Deprive me of office to-morrow,you can never deprive me of the consciousness that I have exercised the powers committed to me from no corrupt or interested motives,from no desire to gratify ambition,for no personal gain.'

Then the sly author of the immortal Chapter on Christianity:'How shall we excuse the supine inattention of the Pagan and philosophic world,to those evidences [miracles]which were presented by Omnipotence?...

The sages of Greece and Rome turned aside from the awful spectacle,and appeared unconscious of any alterations in the moral or physical government of the world.'

Then the shade of the poet,the last of the optimists:

How the world is made for each of us!

And each of the Many helps to recruit The life of the race by a general plan.Then one of the three enthusiasts he had seen just now,the author of the Apologia :

'My argument was ...that absolute certitude as to the truths of natural theology was the result of an assemblage of concurring and converging probabilities ...that probabilities which did not reach to logical certainty might create a mental certitude.'

The second of them,no polemic,murmured quieter things:

Why should we faint,and fear to live alone,Since all alone,so Heaven has will'd,we die?He likewise heard some phrases spoken by the phantom with the short face,the genial Spectator:

'When I look upon the tombs of the great,every motion of envy dies in me;when I read the epitaphs of the beautiful,every inordinate desire goes out;when I meet with the grief of parents upon a tombstone,my heart melts with compassion;when I see the tombs of the parents themselves,I consider the vanity of grieving for those whom we must quickly follow.'

And lastly a gentle-voiced prelate spoke,during whose meek,familiar rhyme,endeared to him from earliest childhood,Jude fell asleep:

Teach me to live,that I may dread The grave as little as my bed.

Teach me to die ...He did not wake till morning.The ghostly past seemed to have gone,and everything spoke of to-day.He started up in bed,thinking he had overslept himself and then said:

'By Jove -I had quite forgotten my sweet-faced cousin,and that she's here all the time!...and my old schoolmaster,too.'His words about his schoolmaster had,perhaps,less zest in them than his words concerning his cousin.

Necessary meditations on the actual,including the mean bread-and-cheese question,dissipated the phantasmal for a while,and compelled Jude to smother high thinkings under immediate needs.He had to get up,and seek for work,manual work;the only kind deemed by many of its professors to be work at all.

Passing out into the streets on this errand he found that the colleges had treacherously changed their sympathetic countenances:some were pompous;some had put on the look of family vaults above ground;something barbaric loomed in the masonries of all.The spirits of the great men had disappeared.

The numberless architectural pages around him he read,naturally,less as an artist-critic of their forms than as an artizan and comrade of the dead handicraftsmen whose muscles had actually executed those forms.

He examined the mouldings,stroked them as one who knew their beginning,said they were difficult or easy in the working,had taken little or much time,were trying to the arm,or convenient to the tool.

What at night had been perfect and ideal was by day the more or less defective real.Cruelties,insults,had,he perceived,been inflicted on the aged erections.The condition of several moved him as he would have been moved by maimed sentient beings.They were wounded,broken,sloughing off their outer shape in the deadly struggle against years,weather,and man.

The rottenness of these historical documents reminded him that he was not,after all,hastening on to begin the morning practically as he had intended.He had come to work,and to live by work,and the morning had nearly gone.It was,in one sense,encouraging to think that in a place of crumbling stones there must be plenty for one of his trade to do in the business of renovation.He asked his way to the workyard of the stone-mason whose name had been given him at Alfredston;and soon heard the familiar sound of the rubbers and chisels.

The yard was a little centre of regeneration.Here,with keen edges and smooth curves,were forms in the exact likeness of those he had seen abraded and time-eaten on the walls.These were the ideas in modern prose which the lichened colleges presented in old poetry.Even some of those antiques might have been called prose when they were new.They had done nothing but wait,and had become poetical.How easy to the smallest building;how impossible to most men.

He asked for the foreman,and looked round among the new traceries,mullions,transoms,shafts,pinnacles,and battlements standing on the bankers half worked,or waiting to be removed.They were marked by precision,mathematical straightness,smoothness,exactitude:there in the old walls were the broken lines of the original idea;jagged curves,disdain of precision,irregularity,disarray.

For a moment there fell on Jude a true illumination;that here in the stone yard was a centre of effort as worthy as that dignified by the name of scholarly study within the noblest of the colleges.But he lost it under stress of his old idea.He would accept any employment which might be offered him on the strength of his late employer's recommendation;but he would accept it as a provisional thing only.This was his form of the modern vice of unrest.